Sunday, 26 July 2015

Talking To Myself.

Dear Diary,
                  Some days, due to the pain in my feet, walking is a terrible chore. I feel really guilty that I can’t take Mia the German Shepherd for long rambles. I don’t want to moan too much, nobody wants to hear about miserable stuff but I thought, while it is wet and miserable outside a little bit more won’t be too much to tolerate just this once. I suppose I should be grateful that I have enough space around me to give her enough exercise with ball games. Yes I am grateful for that. The pain isn’t always there either so I am grateful for that too.

I used to run long distances. Not as part of a club or anything. Just on my own and just for the sheer joy of it. Miles and miles I used to go. Probably ran a few marathon distances without even realising it. Sometimes in my dreams I imagine I still run everywhere. My feet hardly making contact with the ground and almost floating.

In my early forties while running across the park I was side swiped by a collie dog. It knocked me to the ground twisting my knee sideways. The dog’s owner was apologetic  and I told her I was fine. As it turned out, I wasn’t all right at all and my running days were effectively over from that day on.

That’s enough introspection. I am going to paint today. I have a quick sketch of flying ducks I shall turn into a work of art.

I have sold seven paintings this year including commissions. All right it’s not many but it’s seven more than Vincent Van Gogh sold in his entire life, short though it was.

I don’t keep a record of how many paintings I have sold in my lifetime. The first one I sold I was in my twenties. I must have sold hundreds since then I would think. I remind myself of this when I lose heart with the whole art thing which is quite frequently.

Not at the moment though. At the moment I am in full artistic mode and loving it.

Feeling happier now that’s off my chest.


  1. An artistic mode is a good place to be.

  2. Your feet hurting makes your whole being hurt. I do not know what your problem is but I also have problems with my lower extremities. Elevate them as much as possible. A good warm soak and gentle massage as you towel them off feels good. Drink a lot of water. You have no idea how many toxins you can flush from your body and how much better you will feel all over. If you feel that it will help compression stockings ease a lot of soreness. They are quite expensive but I order them online and pay less than 1/3 of the price. Now this tip will sound strange but it does work. Walk barefoot through the grass for a few minutes every day. I do not know why it works but it does.

  3. I'm glad you're in artistic mood. Can we see the flying ducks when the painting is finished> As for the feet, you have my sympathies - from one who knows!