I’m not wanting to sound unloved or needy. I am not looking for sympathy either but I am feeling lonely. I do have family close at hand and I do have friends who I know I can talk to at any time but my loneliness is not the kind that can be comforted away with kind words, understanding and hugs. My loneliness is inside my head. It is ungraspable. It cannot be taken hold of and shaken. It cannot be stirred until it melts away. And at this very moment in time - although I thought otherwise - it cannot be written about.
When I feel like that I find a sad old movie and cry my eyes out. I hope you find what helps you. I don't have the haunting past you do so I can't really help. I do hope you remember that so many of us care.
ReplyDeleteSuddenly I'm angry! I wonder if all this dredging up old memories is harming you. What is wrong with those people? I'll bet there are others who are in the same boat. It's just plain cruel.
ReplyDeleteThank you Emma. You understand. Yes, there are many others reliving those times. We have the option of counselling. I have decided not to go down that route. Also I am feeling unwell these last few weeks and that doesn't help.
DeleteI hope you feel better soon. Both in your body and in your head. If you get to the place you would like to get that stuff out of your head and sort it out you can write it down. No one needs to see it but it helps to get it outside. It's easier to deal with. You know I'm on your side.
DeleteI hope you feel better soon, John, mentally and physically. It's no consolation, I know, but I am in a similar mood. Having nobody to talk to and confide in is my situation. Charlie the cat hears most of my woes and I guess that helps in some strange way.
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