What you can say is, you can say, "Hey I'm not going to let that get to me."
What you can say is, you can say, "I'm just moving on, no problem."
Oh yes, you can say these things. You can say them to yourself easily enough. You can even say them to your friends, although they may well detect the hesitant stammer as they catch in your throat.
You can say these words easily enough. What isn't so easy is to mean them.
Perhaps I make myself out to be stronger emotionally than I actually am. Well there is no perhaps about it. The truth is I am hurting. I am an emotional wreck this morning. Serves me right I suppose. I ought to know that you can't satisfactorily deal with a problem by ignoring it. That is an ill considered thing to do and in those cases where another person is involved, I have come to the conclusion, that it is very hurtful to disregard another's feelings even if it is done in the red midst of anger. I am sorry for that.
This blog serves many purposes, but one of the most important is that it allows me a platform for my thoughts, and to share them with others. It is very helpful. I am grateful for that.
PS. Some of you might have noticed I am no longer on Facebook. It might look as though I have deleted you. I haven't. What I have done is temporarily deactivated my account. I enjoy Facebook, I am missing it already. I am sure I shall be back on it again soon.
You are allowed to be an emotional wreck,it's like grieving .We have to do it before we can move on.
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We all deal with things in our own way, John. There are no hard and fast rules. I don't go on Facebook enough times to notice that you'd deactivated. Sorry about that. Actually sometimes I wish I could deactivate... lol.
ReplyDeleteKeep Calm And Carry On....walking the dogs, I say. A true friendship is too rare and precious to 'walk away' from so easily, or let slip into -eventually- just a nice memory. Forgive and forget, life's too short. Sorry John.
ReplyDeleteYou have lifted me up again Sam. It won't rain on Thursday now. I am sorry too.
ReplyDeleteI do appreciate your honest thoughts and feelings expressed through this blog. Thank you for your refreshing posts that I always enjoy reading. Hope all works out!
ReplyDeletePain is part of the process. What you do for yourself is the important thing. Allow yourself to hurt; just do not let it overwhelm you. It is a form of grieving and as time goes on the hurt becomes more manageable and happy memories begin to come forward. It may help to know how many of us care about you.
ReplyDeleteThank you Emma. I always appreciate your comments.
ReplyDeleteEverything will be okay again John....behind every dark cloud is a silver lining...this too shall pass.
ReplyDeleteWe are all here for you.
Aw John- whatever happened that you got hurt, try to let it go. hugs
ReplyDeleteOh John I understand. HUG B
ReplyDeleteSorry hub. Hope you cheer up soon. Did you get some pigeon poop thrown at you?
ReplyDeletec yber hugs from across the big wide world.
ReplyDeleteI keep telling our Heavenly Father that I am not nearly as tough as He keeps insisting I am. Sigh.
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