If Fifty Shades Of Grey Can Then Why Not Me?

John next door has lent me a wireless mouse for this laptop. He also gave me a few lessons on how to use this machine, but I can never manage to retain much of the information I am given. Give me a few years and I should get the hang of things.

My big proper computer is being mended. Having a new hard drive fitted. Whatever that means. I said to the bloke, please, whatever you do don't delete my book. He told me not to worry. But I can't help it. I don't fancy writing it all over again.

My former creative writing tutor Stuart has read the manuscript, and I am pleased to say he likes it. Very well written he said. Very honest. He says I have a voice and he heard it as he read. The honest part is what gives me cause for concern. Some nasty things happened in my childhood. I have written about this with absolute candour but there are doubts in my mind about whether they are too personal. But then again, I survived them so what the hell, I'm getting old, what do I care? So publish and be damned! Besides which, that is what the book is about. Or is it? This is something that Stuart mentioned. It is what the book is lacking. What is it's purpose? Where am I going with it?

I think I need to dwell a bit more on my development as a child. My feelings, and how they changed as I grew older. How I toughened up physically and mentally. How my feelings towards my Mother became confused? Those things need some sort of resolution. It will add to the story, give a sense of purpose to it. These are Stuart's thoughts on it and I agree with him. Also the ending was too abrupt. I shall add to it. I think I have more to say. It will not cause too much rewriting.

Stuart thinks it is certainly worth publishing. I should mention that I value his opinion because he is a well known script writer and has done many scripts for television dramas, including some of the most famous ones. He knows what he is talking about.

As to the publishing side of things, well I know I said I wasn't going to, but I think self publishing is the way to go these days. It is so simple. Each book is printed to order, and the commission fees are very low. Stuart has said he will give me as much help as I need. I need to investigate a bit more but I think that is what I will do.

Finding a publisher or an agent at my age would it seems be well nigh impossible. They look for young people who they hope will write many books, so they can earn big money. It is a business after all.

The woman who wrote 'fifty shades of grey' self published and was then taken on by a publisher.
And she can't even write, so I have heard. I haven't read it. I don't need to. I am an established expert where sex is concerned. So you never know what might happen. Anyway best seller or not. I am pleased to have written it.

I shall start adding a few more words to the book as soon as my computer comes back from being mended. I can't write quick enough on this laptop.

Quick update on Mac the puppy. He has a lot to learn about country living, but he already knows about not chasing the hens, and Bonnie the cat is being braver around him. Mind you, I shall not let him off the lead yet, just in case he takes off and is never seen again. It really is nerve wracking looking after someone else's young dog. I'm exhausted! So is he, he has gone to bed. My bed. He slept on it last night too. It doesn't bother me. He is only little. It wouldn't work with Sadie the German Shepherd though.

I still don't know how to get photos on to here. I bet it turns out to be really easy.

See you soon.